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| Friday, April 3, 2009 |
| Is it worth losing? worth treasuring or worth letting go? |
That's one particular day, the sense of losing crossed my mind again. Knowingly or unknowingly, we lost a lot of things or people in our life.I looked at strangers on the streets, in the train or anywhere...I can't help but wonder what/who have this people lost? I look at friends/colleagues and wonder if he/she is as happy as he/she might look...or if they're as lost? I was so into losing that I missed out the point that losing made some of us treasure someone or something even more. Or maybe wake up to reality, that something is worth letting go...or something is worth losing.
Have you ever wonder why do human beings have to come to this stage, to learn how to treasure? Only at the verge of losing, to know that things are not in place? Or when the sense of something's missing came into place? Are we so cynical that we had took everything and everyone for granted? Or simply we think that we will not lose anything or anybody in life? Or is it that we lost so much that we have become such
sad individual that we do not wanna bother at all anymore. Whoever come and goes, does not matter at all?
Do we do this intentionally or is just our nature that make us so? Why can't we treasure everything and everyone that is in our life? Why do ones have to come to this final stage when everything its almost over and beyond repair, and start trying to save what is almost broken? Don't we know? Don't we realise? Don't we ever sense that things is going wrong? And the culprit's life carry on, as if nothing happen. The affected party just buried in misery and leave in wreakage for a
long long time.
I wonder if its due to the fact that life had become so routine that we just see everything the same, not noticing the lack of something, not noticing that we're not as we first started. Or something had come into our life that had changed the relaionship. Strange thingy is that some of us do speak out that something is not heading the right way but yet some of us still deny the fact that something is going wrong till the affected party start to distance...and there's where we all panick and wonder what had happened. We forgot that the affected party had speak their mind. Telling you exactly what is wrong. Why do we have to wait till then and realise that we had taken everything for granted? Why can't we treasure and appreciate that affected party in the same way when we first know that person. Or why can't we make sure that we periodically check ourselves and make sure that we let the person know that he/she still matter to us? Many of us don't, we just assume that the sun will always shines, the sky will always be blue. We forgot there's night fall and there might be thunderstorm coming one's way. We absolutely forgot about that things will change, people changes, feeling changes over time.
Sometimes, I thought of words that human beings had ever said. The "You mean a lot to me", the "till death do us part", the "I treat you the same as the other close friends", the "I never forget you", the "I always miss you, no matter where I go"...But is it so? Do you mean what you say? If you mean what you had said...then why do the other party still doubt the sincerity of it? Is it because somewhere down the road of life, the other party do not feel so anymore? If there's really till death do us part, then why is there divorce? If you always miss me? Then why don't we feel so? If you treat us the same as others, why we don't feel that way?
I come to the point that even if we let that someone goes, that someone's life will still carry on. Maybe that someone will wonder what had happened but all these will passed, and new people will enter this person's life, and we will be history...a memory, a past...
So for you, is it worth losing? worth treasuring or worth letting go? |
posted by Jude @ 9:47 AM  |
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