| Friday, March 13, 2009 |
| Are you in the dream world or the real world? |
Sometimes life is funny, mysterious and filled with surprises. There's moment that you thought the entire sky gonna collapse on you and there's times when you're like as if on cloud nine. How strange life could be. But I guess the worst is, to be stuck in between...the uncertainty of whether you're actually happy or sad. Its like an emotions fluctuation, one moment you can laugh as if its your last breathe and enjoy as if its your last few hours on earth. And another moment, you wish that you could breathe no more, cry no more, live no more...so that all the pain that you felt at that moment can just ease to last.
I sat here, looking at the passerby, wondering at which stage of emotions are they in. Today is Friday 13, many believe that is an evil day. So does it mean that these people whom I am looking at right now. If they looks happy means that they're the devil in disgust? My apologizes, just some dry humour in between a serious topic :-P
Alrighty back to where I stopped. If life could be smooth sailing all the time. Wouldn't it be nice? No tears, no pain, no confusion, no contradiction, nothing is uncertain, nothing to cause that pumping headache, no breathlessness, everything is peaceful and clear, everything is precise, no doubts, no expectations, no reason to apologize. Geez...sound like my own imaginary perfect world. If the world gonna be like that, would we all be like robots...emotionless? I am not sure. But my imaginary world seems painless and filled with joy and happiness. But this is never gonna be so. Reality is always reality, fact is always gonna be facts. No matter how I do not like the current situation...time will never stop for me. The heartache will not gonna ease. The uncertainties and doubts will not gonna bring less questions.
How does ones live life without much heartache? How does one's erase the memories and move on happily in life? How to know if the heartache is cause by ourselves? Sometimes, especially recently, I begin to wonder if the heartache is due to our own expectation that its not being meet or our own dream being diminish. And one fine day...suddenly, we woke up from our dream and realize how foolish we were to be stuck in dreamland without realizing it. And finally, we realized that we need to really erase this dreamland fantasy and this is where all the pain come from. The feeling of whether its right or wrong start to engulf us. What if we make the wrong assumption?
I just wonder what make us suddenly rose like snow white being kissed by the handsome prince. The only difference is that snow white woke up to a happily ever after but we woke up to reality that hurts.
This world is beautiful but how could things be so beautiful become so ugly the next moment? Or is it that the world or reality is too ugly that we've to dream to live through each day? Therefore, are you in the dream world or the real world? |
posted by Jude @ 6:17 PM  |
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